A Tough Weekend

by This is Carrie on September 10, 2011


The days leading up to 9/11 are tough for me.  Every year I think/hope it’ll get easier but it doesn’t seem to.  This year has been even tougher. Not just because it’s the 10th anniversary of the event that rocked my life and all of the world, but this year, on 9/8, my sweet niece’s husband took his own life.  It’s been a weekend full of pain and incomprehensible sadness for him, for her, for the long life they should’ve shared together.  As I let myself read back over my reflections on 9/11 (something I do only once a year), it’s amazing how many of the emotions i am feeling right now are exactly the same.  Someday I will look back and once again remember feeling sadder than I have ever felt before.

Jared Jones was truly one of the last remaining “nice guys” in this world.  He was the kind of guy everyone loved being around and his musical talents (combined with those of his wife–my niece) made our family camp out talent show something we’d look forward to every year.  We will miss him terribly.

If you have a little to give, you can download their album, Tico by their band Black Bear or their song “Little Stream” (my favorite)–both on iTunes. If you have more to give, donations can also be made to his memorial fund HERE.

Prayer is free, so please keep it coming.



Paula Titel September 10, 2011 at 11:47 pm

I’m so sorry for your loss. I was in the same YSA ward with your neice and Jared Jones and I had many mutual friends. (I’ve been reading your blog for years now). I’ll be sending prayers to you and the family!

Emily September 11, 2011 at 5:02 am

Hugs to you and your family! My cousin committed suicide a week ago, so I am going through a similar sadness today. Such a sad and tragic event. I will keep your family in my thoughts!

Nicole September 11, 2011 at 9:29 am

So sorry to hear about your loss. I’ve recently read History of a Suicide by Jill Bialosky. Depending on your circumstances it could really be a helpful read. It is a beautiful exploration of life that you may want to look into when you are ready.

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September 11, 2011 at 9:48 am

Oh Carrie :( my heart hurts for you, for her, for him. UGH. What a terrible loss. I’m praying for you!!! Hugs from VA

KP September 11, 2011 at 11:39 am

I am sorry Carrie! I can only imagine how your family is reeling right now!

I always love reading your 9/11 post!

chels September 11, 2011 at 2:55 pm

Oh my gosh. Carrie I’m so sorry. Loves and prayers headed your way…

Katie September 11, 2011 at 7:58 pm

Carrie, I am so sorry. I wish nobody else had to feel the pain that leads to suicide or feel the pain of losing someone like this. My heart goes out to you and your family. Hugs.


Holly September 11, 2011 at 9:38 pm

I am so sorry for your loss and pain. My ex-husband committed suicide days before 9/11/01, and his funeral was on that day. Now these two events have and will always be tied together for me, and each year the pain comes rushing back with the news coverage. I will be praying for your niece and all the survivors, and wishing you peace and comfort.

jonita mortensen September 12, 2011 at 9:00 pm

Thanks Carrie for putting into words the pain I feel but am still unable to express. My heart is aching for my granddaughter, daughter, and all those who loved Jared so much.

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September 17, 2011 at 8:02 pm

i’m so sorry. i wish i had more than that, carrie. love to you and yours.

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